"You're the only one in control of your happiness. I know it seems like things consume you, but you can't let them. Life is way too short to be upset. Heal your pain so you can smile again...I promise you'll feel content when you start loving yourself..."
I've been in a very dark place lately, I'm not one to get all personal and open up on the internet to complete strangers, but this is one thing I just want to share with everyone.
Do you ever get those feelings where you feel like you're alone, surrounded by a pool of people but just totally alone? Like a stranger in your own body. Do you sometimes feel like you care too much about the people around you who don't care in return? Do you feel like you're drowning so deep into an ocean that every time you try to pull yourself up, you drown a little deeper each time? Do you feel like you just want to cut everyone out of your life and just mentally shut down when life gets just way too hard?
I guess I can say that I've been there too, very recently to be honest. It came to such a stage that I let all these thoughts, these negative feelings, consume me and take over my entire being, and I felt lost inside myself, like I just didn't want to be anymore. I wanted to get away from myself. The more I tried, the more I drowned, the more deeper I fell.
It wasn't until a couple of weeks ago, that this began to fade, when I spoke to someone who I hadn't spoken to in a log time, and it had made literally made my heart swell and tears of a sort of happiness overcame me. She advised me such amazing advice that till today I hold tight to it and it gives me hope. And because it gives me hope, I feel as though I should share it in hope that it will help someone out there too.
As cheesy and corny as this may sound,
you just gotta do you. You have to stop caring so much about what others think and what others want all the time. At the end of the day, people will always be selfish, and now for once in your life, you have got to be a little selfish. It's time to stop focusing on other people, and just focus on yourself.
Find something you love doing that will help you de-stress. Go outside, go for walks, appreciate the beauty of everything. Thing about all the things that you have been blessed with. Everybody wants a do over of life sometimes, because trust me I do as well, but unfortunately, that choice is not ours to make, you need to work with what you have.
Have confidence, speak your thoughts, and no matter what, keep your head held high. No one, absolutely no one has the right to make you feel like nothing. And the only person that can change the way you feel, is YOU.
I am by no means the perfectly content person, I do occasionally have my breakdowns, i feel sad, and sometimes my heart feels so broken that I just don't know what to do with myself.
But every day, it gets easier to heal because every time you break down, and build yourself back up your heart becomes a little stronger, and I know that no matter what, I will be okay, that this feeling, this sadness, this heartbreak will pass.
You have too much love to give to be a sad person. You just need to reserve this love for the people that deserve it. But the most important thing, you HAVE to love yourself. Saying that you are strong is one thing...you need to believe it with all your heart.
And with that my dear readers, I end this post, give you time to take in the words that made a difference in my life and I hope it makes a difference in yours. I hope you find a reason to finally be happy, to finally have a peace of mind, because I think I've found mine. Feel free to email me if you ever wish to talk, I may not be good at giving advice but I do try to make people smile, because seeing people happy, makes me happy also.
I hope you always find a reason to Keep On Smiling.